everyday life

Realizing that you miss someone you shouldn;t and don;t want to miss…
really is not funn.
this boy changed my life..
made me who i am today..
and it’s like………
hard NOT to miss him.
but he’s already moved onto some nasty slut.

and i’m stuck here broken, yet again.

no fun.

Don’t you just hate the nights where you want to sleep oh so badly but your mind is running WAY to much and sleeping is the last thing you’re gonna do?

yet again..
this happens to me.
so i get time to just sit here and think..
a couple things have really hit me on this particular night.

i realized that i’m in love with my best friend. but also i realized that i can’t tell him because i’m scared and i dont think that it would really work out because he;s afraid of relationships..
so i think i’m going to just hide it and not let on that i do..
first day i met him…
i knew something was going to happen.
i guess something just get realized way to late to do anything to prevent it.

eek):
i have no idea what to do and it really kinda sucks.

whatever…
life…..
gooess…
on……..

you just gotta be able to see all the greatness through the layer of bullshit.

Awhh.. Family Reunions…

What comes to mind is ….
loud.
crazy.
old.
young.
boring.
hectic.
chaotic.
no funn at all.
etc.

yupps.
this weekend is not going to be a funn one lemme tell you that.
it’s all old ppl and kids i’ve never met..!

why must they do this?

Demi Lovato!<33

her new CD has got me hooked!

Sometimes life is just not what i want it to be.
but after hearing him say he doesn’t care what i have done, as long as he can have me!
. it just makes everything like a million times better.
and i think that i might actually be falling in love with this boy.
but i am still afraid to get hurt.
my conscience is still in the back of my mind telling me to watch out for every turn i take.
i’m scared to love.
i’m scared i’ll end up with the 90% of the marriages that DON’T work out.
i don’t have a perspective on love… and it’s really hard to try to figure it out.

i’m just sooo confused.
and scared….

I’m sick of it….

Somehoww. i miss this town.. i miss the memories.. no matter how hard they were. i had a handful of close ppl that cared abot me no matter what.. i miss it.. i miss the pain. i miss it…..

you’re smile still lifts me up!<3

At first i didn’t think that i was going to have very much fun here…

 that it was just going to be boring like all the other times..

 but i can honestly say that the first night here i had a very good time.<3333

i miss most of the ppl here ..

<333333

 oh, sweet arizona you suprised me again.